Snow flakes…

DSCN3674.JPG          Snow fell covering everything in sight… 

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This is my post for Tuesday December 10th…

Over this past weekend the snow flakes fell and covered the ground in a coat of puffy white.. The beauty of the white snow was over whelming… I could have stood at the door for hours and taken a million photos… Everything looks so new and pure… For days the snow fell, and the accumulation was enough to give the children a place to go sliding down hill… On one of those days when the snow blew so hard it looked a blizzard.. I happened to catch three children heading over to the ball field with sleighs in their hands.. There is a pretty good hill at the ball park…  I would imagine it’s big enough to give ya a great ride..

DSCN3679.JPG   Marks left by the squirrels as they dance over the snow…

It is nothing like some of the parks around here… There are ones that are steep, that will send a person speeding out of control … Standing at the top of the hill makes you wonder if you are going to come out of this alive… You stand there and watch the person in front of you as they start desending the hill… All you can hear are their blood curdling screams, as snow flies into their faces… They hang on tight to each other as they fly through the air… Their bodies detatch from the sleigh and they go flying through the air like rag dolls… Their arms and legs flailing through the air, as they land hard on the ground… Puffs of snow billow around them, where they lay still, with no sound… Are they alive?? The panick inside you now raises in your mind and you try to remove yourself from your sleigh… 

DSCN3690.JPG       Snow gathered on everything around… 

It’s way too late to get away now.. Your freinds have already pushed you and your partner over the point of no return… The wind is now blasting your face with icy shards of pelting snow… It’s quite an experience once you have been pelted by icy snow… It’s something you will never forget… The speed starts to pick up and there is alot of loud sounds you can hear around you… Is it someone warning you of impeding danger??  You flip in and out of consiousness as you hear the voices heighten… Down and down you keep going, like a hampster on a tread mill.. Your eyes have been close tight for along time now, and you do not know what is coming next… You tighten your grip and breathe in the cold sharp air… When will this ever end?? 

DSCN3684.JPG     All the lights are covered by mounds of snow flakes…

Your sleigh has hit something hard and you can feel your body being ejected into the freezing air… You feel like you are floating on a pillowy white cloud.. Reality is about to become your awakening point… It’s your voice that is screaming above your partner’s voice.. It was you all the time, as you let your fear out to be seen by all that watch… Then the real moment comes when the surface is no longer soft and inviting.. Flat on your back you bounce off the snow and come to a dead stop.. The pain flows through your body.. You have landed hard.. Hard enough to make reality come to life… You open your eyes as falling snow surrounds you.. A branch sits very close to your head.. Your body is distorted and out of order… 

DSCN3677.JPG            Snow is wonderful….

There is something wrong with the puzzle that once was your body… Your partner approaches you to assess your state… One of your legs was twisted where it was not before… Panic has now flown through your body… The pain is now part of the equation, as you try to move your left leg.. Your leg has been broken by your landing… paramedics are called to tend to your injuries… The trek up the hill is much better than the ride down the hill… At the top of the hill a crowd has drawn around to see what is happening… The police help to keep the crowds out of the way, as you crest the hill… The wind is cold and your body can feel the chill even more now… Once inside the ambulance it’s warmer, and the needle you received keeps you calm… The shock of the uneven roads does not cause you discomfort… The needle has taken care of the pain… Your partner is holding your hand and talking softly to you… 

DSCN3676.JPGThis little fella waited till I cleaned the feeder and put in fresh food..

It seems to be taking a longtime to get to the hospital, and soon you have arrived.. On a stretcher the doctor has you wheeled into a private room… The doctor has determined that you have a broken leg and surgery is needed as soon as possible… The doctor says that youwill no longer be going sleighing… This is a day that will not be forgotten… 🙂

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS…  Have have yourselves a very great day on Tuesday… 🙂 🙂

 

 

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Darkness 3…

death.jpg                          There are other alternatives…..

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This is my post for Thursday November 28th…

This will be my last part of my post on the darkness, Depression and Suicide.. This is a very important topic as the topic comes to the fore front of the news, and other media agencies.. I, like many are hoping that the awareness of depression will draw out the people suffering, so they can get some help… These agencies are like an olive branch in a time of need.. The word is getting out to everyone, and Doctors are making attempts to help all they can.. But, like all things in this world, no one can be forced into finding the help and continuing with the help they have asked for… Sometimes, being safe behind that locked door is where most of us would rather hide… Not every body understands the security of silence, but I sure do…. I am safe inside out of sight to those who stare and whisper to others.. There are too many judgmental people that sneer and run you down when you’re not there… These people are cowards and will not belittle you to your face… It’s the bully in the school yard syndrome that we all carry in us.. 

pills.jpg                 Drugs are the choice of many who kill themselves…

Drugs, guns, cutting, jumping out in front of vehicle on the road ways, jumping off bridges, structures, hanging, poison, and many others I have not listed.. These are the choices when it comes to ending all the pain and hurt.. “Yes.” This ends the pain the person suffers relentlessly for heaven knows how long… Little children have the advantage, for someone else will be getting them help… This continued help will drag their minds away from the darkness… Adults are their own helper they need to decide for their future… I know of many who try to over analyze their feelings to the point that they think their situation is hopeless… Negative thinking is a poison that deepens depression… Those that carry baggage also become depressed… The fact that it happened before is their handful of pills that returns them to the darkness.. Uncertainty will heighten their depression, and they will always fear a hurt that may not even be there… Fear is the enemy… Depression is not a friend… 

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Sadness is an emotion that loved ones feel when they find what has happen to someone they love… The feeling of “If I only noticed”  “If only I could have seen the signs”  “If I only knew what was happening.” The guilt they feel and the tears they cry for the one who has hidden away in the darkness… But, it is too late, for now they will find depression… A depression that is fueled by guilt, anger and emptiness for not seeing a love ones pain.. The nightmares that play over and over in front of their eyes…. The sight of your lifeless body, that just a few hours before was alive.. The blood, the pills, the note you left behind, the place you were found and the ending of your life will be in their memories forever… Friends will innocently ask how you are, without knowing you have chosen to take your own life.. The pain will once again remind your loved ones that you are gone… Never to be seen or talked to again.. Your family will bring flowers to your grave, never knowing the reason “Why.” I ask that, those who may read this and deal with depression… I want you to get help… “Now.”    🙁 🙁

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… I wish you all a great weekend and the rest of the week… I will see you again, on Tuesday December 3rd… 🙂 🙂

Thinking…

thinker.jpg                                               Thinking… 

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This is my post for Thursday November 21st…

Thinking is something we all do from time to time.. Thinking seems to attack our brains right at the most inconvenient times.. Like the  sleeper who get the chance to lay awake  thinking when they really don’t want thinking to be there… I am, one of those night thinkers, and believe me that is not a good time to be thinking about everything.. Granted, I have found several solutions to problems and ways to fix things… It’s no way to sleep for sure… Thinking enlightens, and opens us up to possibilities we would have not know before.. Thinking stimulates our brains and sometimes leads use in a new direction… We think from the time we are born till the time we cease to live.. Thinking helps us everyday of our lives… We are thinkers and solvers of this world… 

think.jpg                                 Babies think…

Their thinking helps them solve the wonder of learning…. From the time they can see, they think.. “Who is that weird looking person over there looking at me?”  They recognize their parents, and family members that inter-act with them all the time.. “What is this thing that keeps going in my mouth?” The sensation of feeding time, and knowing when they are hungry or messy… As they grow they sit and think… “How can I get over to that toy?” They use their thinking to solve how to move their body parts in order to get the toy.. They think about pulling themselves up on things and stand.. Babies are smarter than we think they are… Just watch them sometimes, and you may see them thinking… 

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We solve , we invent, we create all through using our thought process.. There are many complicated issues that need a lot of thought to solve, and some that are fixed through minimal thinking… There are teams of thinkers put together to come up with a solution on impending problem… ie  How to fix the dam without flooding the farmers lands.. How to build a monster mall… How to create an environment that is pleasing to others, and will draw people to this place… All these events are all possible through the power of thinking.. When we commit ourselves to thought, we can accomplish astronomical achievements…

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Solving the problem when the light bulb comes on in our head… It’s an amazing feeling inside… Your self-esteem is boosted, and you  seem to walk with a lighter brisk step.. We think better of our accomplishments as a part of ourselves.. We gage ourselves using the power of thinking… This is a good feeling that turns about your self worth.. Thinking, solves so many issues whether they be large or small.. Never stop thinking about the things that you have accomplished in your life… We are all part of the solution.. 

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It’s not easy dealing with thoughts that mow us down, and leave us wavering, and not sure of others thoughts.. Thinking we will not be the right style, right body shape, right person we should be to others… Negative thinking can draw you down into depression, and self doubt… “Put that silly way of thinking away”… “Lock it up some place where, you will never find it again..” Thinking about the perception others have of you is a waist of time and energy… Be who you are, and you will feel better in your heart and in the way you are in your skin… I use the, ” I am who I am and if you don’t like it! Poo on you..” I am me and you can’t be liked by everyone.. As far as the people who talk behind your back… They are just school yard bullies all grown up… I say, those that talk behind your back, belong behind you… Walk away from that type of person, they are toxic waste… True people don’t do that to the ones they like or love… We were all made different and we don’t need to stack up against those around us and their thinking… Be who you are and enjoy your life..  🙂 🙂 BE PROUD OF YOURSELF !!!

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… Till Tuesday next week.. Enjoy each day… 🙂

The words written here are my opinion and only mine…

Silence…

no noise.png                     In the silence I sit in peace….

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This is my post for Wednesday November 20th…

I sit here in the silence that fills this room.. The sound of the furnace chasing away the chill in the room, leaves me with a cozy feeling.. The old furnace has been a faith full companion for the time we have lived here.. Without the furnace I would be cuddled up in layer after layer of clothing and blankets.. The silence here gives me time to think over my actions of the days that have past.. I can hear the settling of the house that surrounds me.. The forever creaking and moaning of it’s timbers.. My mind wonders to many different places during this time of silence.. The surrounding world moves on in it’s rituals of life.. I enjoy the silence as it gives me the time to reflect.. I crave this silence at times, as it is an escape from reality.. The pending thoughts of the day are put at rest in this silent place.. I need not worry, nor think of what’s for dinner… I have time to rest from my rituals of the day.. I am calm and relaxed in these moments, minutes, or even hours.. For, they are my time away..

silence.png                    The voice of silence is one of relaxation…

I tap loudly on the keys of this laptop.. Keys that help me capture the words that fill the spaces in this place.. The noise of barking dogs as voices become louder… Talking over the noise that continues.. The television blaring so loudly that the people outside can share the content they can only envision.. The sounds from outside… A car spinning it’s wheels in the hopes of escaping the grip of the wet snow that surrounds them… The sounds of voices, voices I don not know nor do I wish to know in my silence… The furnace hums on, as the door is left open to the cold.. The voices that surround me as family meet to share my silent place.. The chatter and laughter are like music to my ears… For, only I wish to have those voices fill the spaces in my silent place… The company has left… The dogs no longer bark, and the television is silent.. The dogs lay sleeping in their cozy beds with covers over their heads… Father is asleep, on the sofa surrounded in warm inviting blankets.. I too wish to feel those blankets surround me in comfort, so I may drift away as others have before me.. I look around at all that has been left behind… The mess will be there after I indulge in the warmth of these cozy blankets… The silence is soothing to my rattled nerves… I drift away into a world of sleep and silence.. 

quiet.png                  Night silence is like no other silence….

This day has drifted into night… The mess has all but disappeared… I am free from the rituals of my day.. I have watched as much television as my brain can handle… I am in search of a place to sleep… A place where my feather filled comforter awaits me.. I climb the stairs to my room, and once there I cuddle under the warmth of this comforter.. The chill will not find me, only the silence of sleep is welcomed here.. I take a deep breath in and feel my body sink into the bed around me.. For, now I am one with this silent place.. As I drift away, my mind has other plans for me… Thoughts crash into my space and fill my head with nagging questions and solutions to problems unsolved.. I roll  to my side in the hopes that the thoughts will not follow.. I turn again as a  flood of unsolved problems roll over me… I resist the calling of those questions and turn once more… I can not escape… Where has my silence gone?? I lay in the darkness letting the thoughts take over my sleep.. This night is long as I do my best to not answer the questions in my mind, and the sights I see when I close my eyes.. Finally, after hours of no sleep the silence comes to rescue me…  I dwell in silence till the morning light finds me tired and unable to face the day… Come again my friend, for you are welcomed… My silence… 🙂

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… Till Thursday.. Well wishes to all.. 🙂 🙂

Why me…

sick.jpg                Under the weather…

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This is my day in a nut shell for Tuesday October 29th…

Today happens to be the kind of that makes you want to close the curtains and forget the world.. I find that I can barely muster enough energy to get up and go.. I don’t know what has attacked me on a this day, as my to do list was full of things to accomplish.. Well, guess what?? The accomplish did not happen..  I’ve been dragging my butt around feeling like a Mac truck hit me, head on.. The nose is running, the eyes watering, and the head is hurting.. If it wasn’t for my stomach being iron clad, I would have been throwing up all day.. The tummy just doesn’t feel right at all.. You know, I wish at times like this I could throw up and empty my stomach.. Get whatever it is out..

I have been wrapped in blankets, sweater, and warm socks attached to my pajamas.. I feel like I’m sitting in the freezer.. I really hope no one else catches this from anyone else.. I know I can’t pass it around, because I’m not around anyone.. That’s a good thing.. I’m not going to spend a lot of time on here tonight… I pray that tomorrow brings me a better day, and more energy.. I did manage to eat two pieces of toast with raw honey on them.. Raw honey is good for what ales you, plus a lot of other uses.. I have tried to drink water, and even tried a ginger ale on the upset stomach.. Needless to say it did not seem to do the trick..

I will continue doctoring myself back to health.. Like I said I’m hoping for a better day tomorrow.. Till tomorrow I wish you all good health, and happiness… 

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… Thanks for showing up… 🙂 🙂

Off for the week…

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Hello everyone.. I will be taking this week off, because of being under the weather. I have no energy, and every part of me hurts. Even my baby toes. 🙁 I feel like my head is going to burst. I sleep most of the day, and feel like I have been dragged down the road. My goal is to be back Monday with my story. Till then, it’s plenty of fluids, chicken soup, and lots of rest. I don’t wish this upon anyone. 

Our weather here has been hot with high humidity, and thunder storms. The weather man has shown the heat is going to continue into next week. I hope where ever you are, that the weather is a little better than here. If it is hot take care of yourself, your pets, young children, and seniors. Drink lots of water.. I wish you all a great week.. be safe… Till later… hydrate… 🙂

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS.   Thanks for being here… 🙂

Rain (6)

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Driving into the danger zone was not planned. But, it was the worst thing that could have ever happened to Mercy and Percy. The pimp wanted his property back. Percy had no intensions on giving Mercy over to that animal..

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Detective Files (15)

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Anette and Sidney had a wonderful celebration with friends and family. Anette had a special glow about her, and Sidney noticed it right away. There was a young girl missing, her name is Annie Weller. A boy eight years old had run away, and a white van picked him up. His name is Jacob Owen.

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Detective Files (12)

dec.jpg         Sherlock Holmes…..

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Moly Dorset had been found huddled behind a freezer. A freezer that contained the frozen bodies of three young girls and one young boy. There had also been found one young girl tethered down to a steel table. She was barely clinging to life. She had been drugged and tortured..

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Detective Files (11)

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Things were getting hot for Sidney and Winslow as they waited for the swat team to arrive. Everyone was on edge, and waiting to see if the missing officer was still alive. Yavin Igmet’s location had been found, and all that had to be done it take the serial killer down.

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