Darkness 3…

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This is my post for Thursday November 28th…

This will be my last part of my post on the darkness, Depression and Suicide.. This is a very important topic as the topic comes to the fore front of the news, and other media agencies.. I, like many are hoping that the awareness of depression will draw out the people suffering, so they can get some help… These agencies are like an olive branch in a time of need.. The word is getting out to everyone, and Doctors are making attempts to help all they can.. But, like all things in this world, no one can be forced into finding the help and continuing with the help they have asked for… Sometimes, being safe behind that locked door is where most of us would rather hide… Not every body understands the security of silence, but I sure do…. I am safe inside out of sight to those who stare and whisper to others.. There are too many judgmental people that sneer and run you down when you’re not there… These people are cowards and will not belittle you to your face… It’s the bully in the school yard syndrome that we all carry in us.. 

pills.jpg                 Drugs are the choice of many who kill themselves…

Drugs, guns, cutting, jumping out in front of vehicle on the road ways, jumping off bridges, structures, hanging, poison, and many others I have not listed.. These are the choices when it comes to ending all the pain and hurt.. “Yes.” This ends the pain the person suffers relentlessly for heaven knows how long… Little children have the advantage, for someone else will be getting them help… This continued help will drag their minds away from the darkness… Adults are their own helper they need to decide for their future… I know of many who try to over analyze their feelings to the point that they think their situation is hopeless… Negative thinking is a poison that deepens depression… Those that carry baggage also become depressed… The fact that it happened before is their handful of pills that returns them to the darkness.. Uncertainty will heighten their depression, and they will always fear a hurt that may not even be there… Fear is the enemy… Depression is not a friend… 

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Sadness is an emotion that loved ones feel when they find what has happen to someone they love… The feeling of “If I only noticed”  “If only I could have seen the signs”  “If I only knew what was happening.” The guilt they feel and the tears they cry for the one who has hidden away in the darkness… But, it is too late, for now they will find depression… A depression that is fueled by guilt, anger and emptiness for not seeing a love ones pain.. The nightmares that play over and over in front of their eyes…. The sight of your lifeless body, that just a few hours before was alive.. The blood, the pills, the note you left behind, the place you were found and the ending of your life will be in their memories forever… Friends will innocently ask how you are, without knowing you have chosen to take your own life.. The pain will once again remind your loved ones that you are gone… Never to be seen or talked to again.. Your family will bring flowers to your grave, never knowing the reason “Why.” I ask that, those who may read this and deal with depression… I want you to get help… “Now.”    🙁 🙁

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… I wish you all a great weekend and the rest of the week… I will see you again, on Tuesday December 3rd… 🙂 🙂

Darkness 2…

darkness.jpg                           Living in the darkness…

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This is my post for Wednesday November 27th…

I started to talk about the darkness of depression.. The fear that lives within the dark.. Depression can be mild or severe, but no matter what, the condition know as depression is dangerous… The mild challenges a depressed person with every thought.. “Am I good enough?” “Why is my mates so mean to me?” “I must have done something wrong to them.” “Why do my parents not love me?” “I am a very bad child.” “Why and what did I do so badly?” These are just a few of the questions that are asked, by a person with depression.. The darkness they feel, brings them deeper and deeper into a place un-inhabitable by anyone… The only option they think they have is suicide… “If I was to die, then all the pain will be gone, and I won’t hurt anymore.” So sad…. 🙁  To the people that love them, suicide is not an option… Most times, all the love in the world is not enough… 

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Statistics show us that in 2019 there were approximately 11 people die by suicide each day… :O  Approximately 4,000 deaths are by suicide per year… Those totals alone are unbelievable, and that is just in the age group of 45-59 years of age… Then there is age groups 15-34  who are young people and adults.. Men have a 3x higher rate then women..  This total does not count indigenous, veterans, homeless, and countless others.. It’s staggering when you look at the stats, and actually see the numbers in front of you.. This is a world of the internet highway.. Bullying can be done by those who just have nothing better to do than to beat another person down… The internet is a great place to gain knowledge, and that’s all fine and dandy… But, there is always the bad apples in the bunch that make a great thing a predator’s haven… “Why must these mean people hurt and drive any person down?” You know the wrong part of all of that is, the people who drive someone to death… They never feel remorse for what they have done… I’m happy I am not one of those rotten humans… “Why hurt others?”

death.jpg           The talents shown by all these great artist is amazing…

This epidemic has grown by leaps and bounds over the years… The depressed person is not a coward, and it takes all the courage they have to kill themselves.. It’s their only way out of the darkness, at least that is how the depressed person sees it… ::  I will continue with the last part of my post on Thursday.. Till then have a wonderful Wednesday, and let’s work towards helping those with depression… 

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… Be safe, and hug your love ones often… 🙂 🙂

Darkness…

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This is my post for Tuesday November 26th…

Darkness can be measured in may ways.. A darkness that no one else  can see, or can imagine on any given day.. Depression is one of the many problems that live in this darkness.. There is a sadness that follows them each day of their miserable existence… There are so many people who struggle with depression each day… Their struggle is real and can become deadly if help is not given right away… I know of many people who suffer with depression, and the faces they wear are ones of happiness, humor, and love.. These faces make it hard for us to see their pain… These faces make them invisible in a crowd.. Most times they are not in a crowd, but hidden behind locked doors… A safe place where no one can see their tears, their anger, their pain.. The feelings of giving up haunt them in their hiding place.. They feel so alone, and useless to everyone around them.. In their minds they are failures, trapped in an uncertain future.. They have a sadness deep inside.. 🙁

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                       The many signs of depression…

There are many places to turn for help… There are places to call and hear a friendly voice on the other end of the line… Counsellors that are for free to those who finally decide help is what they need… There are groups to sit in on, and talk about the sadness they feel… There are medications that can be given to take the fear away.. There are hospitals that can give care and assistance to anyone that desires their help… There is a common thread that holds their darkness together.. That is the desire and belief that their feelings are private, they are not shareable with anyone… It’s a lonely place to live.. Bullies can taunt their targets only out of cruelty alone… Their purpose is to inflict as much pain in order to feel they are superior and above their targets… Children torment innocent children in ways learnt in their home environments or from other children.. They watch and they learn by others actions… Co-workers, the boss, management, can bully as well… The over bearing miss/mister who live each day to belittle their friends or co-workers… Even parents, and grand-parents can inflict a pain that stings so deeply that depression is the ultimate conclusion..

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I will continue with this topic over this week.. Till Wednesday I wish you all a wonderful day.. 

 

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… Thanks for listening to my words… 🙂 🙂

Lovely…

DSCN2072 (2).JPG           A stream of light quickly reveals a lonely mushroom..

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This is my banter for Thursday September 19th…

Hello everyone:: I imagine your day was pretty darn good, and as I say ‘lovely’.. I hope your families are safe, happy and in good health.. My family is great and seem to be in good spirits.. You know.. I like days, like today.. The breeze was cool and moderate.. I got to get out and harvest some more seeds from the gardens.. I do this every year and use them to bring bright colors around the back yard… I also had to un-pot a few plants that had withered away and died.. They had a good run during the spring and summer.. I have several potted plants that are still blooming, and have right from the start.. I have been keeping a close eye on the peppers I planted from seeds.. They have flowered and are growing larger each day.. Soon it will be time to prune back all the taller plants in preparation of the winter.. Some of the plants in the gardens are still blooming and suppling food for the bees.. We can’t clip those yet.. Maybe with some sweet talking I can get Douglas to wait for a couple weeks before pruning.. I like the bright colors and want to enjoy them till the end.. 

DSCN2113.JPG       They are watching us…

It was funny to look out the window and see pair of eyes on the tree trunk.. To tell you the truth, it took me awhile to realize the eyes were there… Douglas never even seen them, until I pointed them out.. It was cool to see them keeping an eye on the campground… The silence in the park was a wonderful treat.. It sure was a change for cars revving their engines, and speeding away to something important.. There was no loud music to hear when you were trying to sleep.. All the sounds of a busy city.. I loved the change… I found it lovely.. There are many surprises out there in the world you just have to look out for them.. They’ll surprise you for sure.. Since returning from camping I have felt a calm that I find wonderful.. I know one thing the dogs were glad to be home and around familiar places.. They bark at the squirrels and the little chipmunks.. I encourage the dogs to use their inside voices.. They know what I mean as they lower their voices to a quiet woof.. But, that doesn’t last too long… And the barking starts all over again.. That’s puppy dogs for ya.. 🙂

DSCN2032.JPG        The fog covers the murky waters with a spooky mist..

This is an interesting photograph.. One that can make a person wonder what is out there in the water.. That’s what I had in mind as I watch the water creep closer to where I was standing.. Was there a creature of unthinkable size lurking in the waters.. Could it be an Anaconda slithering it’s way towards a snack that was going to be me.. I stood there watching as the fog drew closer and closer.. My heart was racing as my mind filled with despair and agony.. A frog jumped into the water behind me… I jumped and turned to see what it was.. I seen nothing.. Was my mind playing tricks on me.. There could not be something that large in this shallow water.. But, I was not taking any chances as I backed up the bank of brush and slippery mud.. I kept a close eye on the fog till I was safely inside the trailer.. I should know better than to let my mind wonder into darker places.. :0

DSCN2110.JPG          Another set of eyes making like they are not watching…

As you can see those eyes on the trees keep a look out for the campers that stay there.. The only thing that bothered me was every time I looked out to the front window of the trailer… There were those eyes.. It was as if  the eyes changed their direction each time I looked at them.. And this set of eyes is sporting a long beard.. Really.. That is actually funny.. I wonder if he gets wood chips in his beard??  Well everyone, I’m on the run… Gotta go.. Till later.. Have a great day..  🙂 🙂

I would like to thank all you wonderful people for stopping by to read my banter.. Thanks…:) 🙂  I’m going to take credit for the photographs in this banter.. As I took all of them.. Hope you enjoy.. 🙂 🙂

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS.. Be safe, and have fun today.. :0 🙂

 

 

 

Warm day…

DSCN2239.JPG          One small cluster of flowers struggles to see the light…

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This is my banter for Wednesday September 18th…

Hello everyone:: I just realized and am amazed to see that this month is melting away before us.. It’s the eighteenth of this month already.. It feels like it had just started a week ago.. Time moves way too fast for me.. It seems like the days are too filled with stressful events.. Events that drag you down and make you feel yucky.. We received news today that a young man in his forties was taken to heaven.. I am a firm believer that our children should not pass before us.. Jamie is my step-son from another marriage.. My sons both kept in contact with him all the time.. He had a heart attack, and his wife found him when she returned home on Monday.. His young wife and everyone who knew him will miss him a lot.. So sad how life is taking away so many of our young people.. He is in heaven, and will live on in our thoughts… There will be another bright star in the night skies.. Jamie will be missed… ;-(

DSCN2252.JPG           Through the branches you can see another camper…

Today was not only sad, but also quite warm.. The sun shone down on all of us.. I sat for a while outside, and took in some of the sun’s warmth.. In the morning it was cool but comfortable.. I sat thinking about our next camping adventure.. I thought of a few places that we did not get time to visit.. I wish to go to the park where I took pictures along time ago.. I had several of my photos placed through out the park paper.. I won the photo contest for the park.. I believe I had four photos in the paper.. It was very exciting at the time.. I had a hard time believing I had won.. We have booked the week of October sixth to the fifteenth.. I can hardly wait to take a million photos of the fall colors.. There will be no internet, and no phone service.. Just the way I like it.. Lots of piece and quiet.. I will let everyone know later as to when we will leave.. Till then, I will be here passing on my banter to those that drop by to read my words.. I thank you all for your time..DSCN2261.JPG        The small river that runs from the falls…

This particular picture has caught my eye and remains as one that will stand out like none of the others.. I found such beauty as the water rolled by our camp area.. The sounds of frogs jumping into the water as we sat peacefully in our lawn chairs.. I found the invisible factor of the water intriguing and captivating.. The fallen pieces of limbs tell a story of their vulnerability to the seasons.. The winds, and stormy weather.. A time when a piece of life was stolen from a growing tree.. The limbs will lay there beneath the water, only to tell it’s story to someone else.. I will cherish that story which I had the chance to see and hear.. The river rolls on through the camp, but I know not how far it rambles.. I may follow it one day soon, and reveal where it goes.. 

DSCN2257.JPG          Blurred in the mess of leaves is a humming bird feeder…

This blur of red stood out behind the clustered leaves.. As I looked further into the leaves I came upon a Humming Bird feeder.. I found the tangled leaves interesting.. They were almost like a porous wall dividing the camp sites from one another..  The flashes of bright sun light fought to find their way through the leaves.. Small creatures could be seen busily moving along as they harvested the treats they need for winter.. Spiders watched through several eyes, as they poised to jump on it’s next victim.. It’s web stretches from limb to limb.. Don’t go running through those limbs as you will be the spiders next victim.. 🙂 ;0  Take care of your loved ones and be safe.. Till later.. Keep your nose into the wind.. 🙂 🙂

I would like to take this time to say thank you to all my wonderful readers who join me each day… 🙂 🙂    All photographs in my banter are taken by myself.. Enjoy.. 🙂 🙂

gran driving red  lips (2).jpgMAGS… Have a wonderful day… 🙂 🙂

 

 

Visiting the garden (6)

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Mom had come across Jody and Sally kissing in the kitchen. Upon mom asking Jody if she was gay, the secret was now out in the open. After a talk with mom and some good advice to Jody and Sally from mom. It was time for the gals to talk with dad.

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Rain (7)

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Percy was not going to put up with anymore crap from pimp boy. He was done. It was time to respond to the situation that was about to happen. Pimp boy and his thugs were about to be taught a big lesson. And Percy was ready for a fight.. 

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Rain (6)

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Driving into the danger zone was not planned. But, it was the worst thing that could have ever happened to Mercy and Percy. The pimp wanted his property back. Percy had no intensions on giving Mercy over to that animal..

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Detective Files (15)

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Anette and Sidney had a wonderful celebration with friends and family. Anette had a special glow about her, and Sidney noticed it right away. There was a young girl missing, her name is Annie Weller. A boy eight years old had run away, and a white van picked him up. His name is Jacob Owen.

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Detective Files (12)

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Moly Dorset had been found huddled behind a freezer. A freezer that contained the frozen bodies of three young girls and one young boy. There had also been found one young girl tethered down to a steel table. She was barely clinging to life. She had been drugged and tortured..

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